Published 19 March 20211 May 2021 · Poetry / Friday Poetry Poetry | Two poems from Ismene’s Survivable Resistance Claire Gaskin Two poems from Ismene’s Survivable Resistance Ismene after the Royal Commission the truth is I went back to the ruins of the house I paid with my being to live in the gate like an opening and closing in the heart my dead mother still living in the one room not burnt out the floor forever giving someone swallowed a mouthful of her dressmaking pins you have a persecution complex she would say now they stand accused I watched it burn my history wearing a meaning mask don’t cause conflict she would say I couldn’t save my mother my heart is not banging in the walls it is the vulnerability in my chest the wall of words I push through realising it’s a bead curtain you are over sensitive I go to say something and … there is a vacuum there is an empty space at the table for me I couldn’t save my sister forgetting is a stone the only place she looks alive is in my dreams the pretending was so profound it became forecasting all that is left of the window is the brown crucifix of a wooden frame the floor tilting towards the viewer emptied of arrival there are three wooden chairs summoning resurrection Ismene’s Patent Foramen Ovale closure was I just a plot device in Antigone’s story a disposable body at a crime scene her shadow still on me a gatekeeper in dreams a disposable body in a crime scene the fourth wall dismantled gatekeepers dream separating like oil and water the fourth wall dismantled the child in the photo looking out from engagement and enquiry mind and body separating like oil and water smiling at the photographer the child in the photograph looking out of engagement and enquiry standing room in the heart only I was thinking the best of the photographer Underneath it all emptied of story standing room in the heart only I put you away in a tabernacle underneath it all emptied of story I sit till the sediment settles I put you away in the tabernacle heart pinning myself to the page with every word written I sit till the sediment settles like skinning an unconscious mouse pinning its skin back with every word written revealing its chest to see it beat skinning an unconscious mouse I wake feeling I have been running I opened its chest to see its heart beat when I’m pinned madness feels like freedom I wake feeling like I have been running all night don’t fall in love with the messenger pinned madness is freedom he said I’m happy if I’ve fixed your migraines as well don’t fall in love with the messenger I didn’t say I’m glad my body was of service in your story my cardiologist said if I’ve fixed you I’m happy in the ultra sound I saw the four chambers I didn’t say I’ve advocated for this for four years of specialists on chesterfields I saw the wall thickened were the metal device is in place the four chambers of my heart a flap waving in the flow her shadow still on me the wall thickened with the metal device in place no longer a plot device robbed of story Claire Gaskin Claire Gaskin is a teacher, lecturer and mentor of creative writing. She completed her first full-length poetry collection a bud in the receipt of an Australia Council Literature Board. A bud was released by John Leonard Press in 2006 and was shortlisted in the John Bray SA Festival Awards for Literature. Paperweight was published in 2013 by Hunter Publishers. Eurydice Speaks was published by Hunter Publishers in 2021. Ismene’s Survivable Resistance was completed as the creative component of her PhD in Writing and Literature at Deakin University and was published by Puncher & Wattmann in 2021. Her poetry collection Weather Event is forthcoming with Gazebo books. https://clairegaskinpoetry.com/ More by Claire Gaskin › Overland is a not-for-profit magazine with a proud history of supporting writers, and publishing ideas and voices often excluded from other places. If you like this piece, or support Overland’s work in general, please subscribe or donate. Related articles & Essays 8 November 20248 November 2024 · Poetry Announcing the final results of the 2024 Nakata Brophy Prize for Young Indigenous Writers Editorial Team After careful consideration, judges Karen Wyld and Eugenia Flynn have selected first place and two runners-up to form the final results of this year’s Nakata Brophy Prize! 6 November 20246 November 2024 · Poetry TV Times Kate Lilley I try out for Can Can after school / knowing I’m not cut out for the high kicks / Ballads chansons show tunes ok / I can belt out Judy Garland and all the songs from Oliver / “Who Will Buy”/”As Long as He Needs Me” / Wher-e-e-e-ere is love