Published in Overland Issue 230 Autumn 2018 · Uncategorized what even r u? | Judith Wright Poetry Prize, second place Rae White non-normative flags whip pink f*g umbrellas out of our trans- -gressive / expressive hands we’re marching / crawling / squirming on our tattoo-tanned bellies out from under the wind-whipped rainbow a man on the footpath leers at / up my swelling skirt … but in a romantic way / normative way / innocent way … (aside : i lost my innocence to this bloke branded the Gendered Healthcare System & his love of inflexible formal binaries) in truth, i’m flexible about discrimination : see also : new msg : ur a genderfree male, yeah? new msg : i get it – ur *just* a non-gendered female?! ur a general lack of person / per- -centage / reference point / pride? a flimsy foundation of cluttered pronouns & threadbare symbols? new msg : wait, r u *just* an emoji? let me try again : r u 1 of those tr*nnys? hey, i heard (on the news / on facebook / on this scrawl of foot- -path propaganda) … that ur identity lacks identity / definition / something i can cling to because : i’m shook / a sook / a sock monster wagging my tail / working myself into a state called ‘unable to show you the slightest respect’ in truth, i’m *just* fucking tired of the marching, the crawling (see also : indulging) : see also : exhausted / pooped / snoozed out of the cis-tem & sick-to-choking on ur systemic lasagna-layered revulsion let me try again : Read the rest of Overland 230 If you enjoyed this poem, buy the issue Or subscribe and receive four outstanding issues for a year Rae White Rae White is a non-binary transgender poet, writer and zinester. Their poetry collection Milk Teeth (University of Queensland Press) won the 2017 Thomas Shapcott Poetry Prize and was shortlisted for the 2019 Victorian Premier’s Literary Award for Poetry. Rae’s second poetry collection Exactly As I Am will be published by UQP in July 2022. Rae is the editor of #EnbyLife, a journal for non-binary and gender diverse creatives. More by Rae White › Overland is a not-for-profit magazine with a proud history of supporting writers, and publishing ideas and voices often excluded from other places. If you like this piece, or support Overland’s work in general, please subscribe or donate. Related articles & Essays 22 November 202422 November 2024 · Fiction A map of underneath Madeleine Rebbechi They had been tangled together like kelp from the age of fourteen: sunburned, electric Meg and her sidekick Ruth the dreamer, up to all manner of sinister things. So said their parents; so their teachers reported when the two girls were found down at the estuary during a school excursion, whispering to something scaly wriggling in the reeds. 21 November 202421 November 2024 · Fiction Whack-a-mole Sheila Ngọc Phạm We sit in silence a few more moments as there is no need to talk further; it is the right place to end. There is more I want to know but we had revisited enough of the horror for one day. As I stood up to thank Bác Dzũng for sharing his story, I wished I could tell him how I finally understood that Father’s prophecy would never be fulfilled.