what makes the green grass grow
‘Soldiers, what makes the green grass grow?’
‘Blood, blood, blood, Drill Sergeant!’
– popular US Army training chant before deployment to Iraq
cut grass, cut the
sentiment. but bug-eyed faces poke
glaring from between upended earth
dolls left buried by the kids that used to
live here but have since left buried
as some television ad for trouble elsewhere
poor kids hummed in a bloodless bubble
the boy who bucketed the dust before the café
is a facebust off an IED and
they will not haunt me, those nameless
traces in the marked earth, ploughed in
by the season. we’re tearing the terror
at the roots, burying spined seeds that blow
i came to spatter earth with the blood
of a few unrelated men, not this blood
that sits awake on a bathroom wall
in the tiled privacy where no grass grows
that blacks into the blankets they used
to wrap the bodies like the bodies of dogs
that blisters easy to the surface of their
broken mouths, barking in that dumb tongue
that soaks into my untrained sleeves
and burns like the lull of fallow guns
i am home now, these are dreams
and i am safe here, the lawnmower
has no memory. in a bright garden
the dust can’t haunt me, grass clips
that dead sentiment can’t haunt me
see, the formation of unhaunted men
waiting for the veteran psych, more pills,
dream seeds to plant in soiled mouths
no grass grows in the desert where
no soil lies still and nothing’s sown
blood waters only blood and my throat
is dry, my cup
(cross-posted at walking and falling)